defeated

 here I am 32 years old and all I have to show for it is some really bad anxiety.im a felon who not only struggles to find employment, but I also struggle to keep jobs because my anxiety eats at my mind. I live at home with my dad who helps support me and my toddler, I really can't go back to working in a factory because I'm not meant for those hard ass jobs. life has me on a ticking clock that's beating me, I have no degree, and my past will not allow me to get a decent job I'm too fat for porn and I couldn't balance on a pole to save my life 

I'm really open to anyone who has any suggestions

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