self-esteem and the things I think

 someone tell me I'm not alone. I feel like I can't go anywhere without all my fears coming to light.

a person who is in recovery, such as myself, I have a lot from my past that I truly try to avoid.

the people who i have done wrong while my judgement was impaired by drugs, greed and selfishness, how will I ever truly be free if every time I turn the corner at Walmart or the park, there she is following me. the guilt the pain and the hurt all come creeping in. all the whispers and all the looks that come with the eyes a feel watching me raging down with judgement. 

how does one truly move on from the person who has hurt them and caused themselves so much pain when that person is them?

the people who live their lives with a raging confidence and their heads up high is who I aspire to be one day. working each day by putting one foot in front of the other and accepting that I can't change my past, but I can change how I see myself today. knowing that the girl who once was is no longer. no longer numb by the drugs, no longer shielded from the impact of the opinions of others, just simply Gods protection and guidance. I now become a little stronger and a little more confident with each new life lesson. I am still a far way from being healed but I believe that not only myself but anyone who has ever been in situations that caused them to act out of their natural character deserve forgiveness and freedom. 

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