happy

years have gone by

and all that I know

my life looking back is

 all just a blur

remember the good times

I can't recall

all that comes up

is the withdraw

the feeling of pain

sweats and all

but once the fix came

I can't remember at all

what did I do

what did I say

a blur of regret

that still haunts me to this day

looking for peace

I guess you could say

I never found that

while playing this game

pain and betrayal 

money and thieves

I've got what you need 

says Satan indeed

barrow and beg 

steal and plead

this chaos is thick 

I'm unable to see 

a way out is tough

a way out is free

finding an exit 

was not easy 

one tries 

then two 

three tries then four 

I did a little time 

now my feet are on the floor

the bottom feels low

but the faith will insure

follow your light 

and there's your door

one month 

then two

keep pushing fourth

looking back now 

two years are restored

a baby was born 

and I can remember it all 

I haven't missed a second 

one day

nothing at all

life is still hard 

but I can say with much grace

thank you Jesus 

for changing my days

closure and strength 

come a little each day 

there were so many things 

I'm grateful I changed

going on three years 

no substance in my veins

I'm stronger and better 

thanks to all of the pain 

life is too short 

to waist it away 

hi, my name is Chelsie 

I'm in recovery today

I was addicted to heroin and meth for many years and now I have over two years clean and sober 

I get to be a mother not just to my youngest but my oldest too

anyone out there struggling with addiction I just want you to know that it's possible so please don't give up and give sobriety a real chance