self-esteem and the things I think

 quickly to sum up how I got here  I started abusing prescription pain meds when I was 14 years old. by the time I was 16 I was strung out on heroin really bad, and this addiction continued all the way until I was pregnant and 21! I tried to get clean off of drugs by taking doctor prescribed methadone medication. the only problem was my partner was still strung out on the other stuff and had no interest in trying to get clean! Here is where the problem lies with a person who is an addict. they are 99 percent more likely to relapse on drugs when the drug is in their faces, all day, every day. I was suppling all the habits because I was the only person in the relationship with an income. Money was tight and my medicine was expensive, I not only had to supply me but his stuff as well and the dreaded time finally came, the one where I knew I'd be faced with either getting his fix or my medicine, my medicine was just as expensive as the rest of the drugs on the street and well I kn...

  My childhood trauma there isn't anything worse than a person who exaggerates a story and blows things out of proportion or just lies, if you think it's mean for me to tell you the truth about something then you need to get with God and find out why that hurts so bad. If you're the type of person to talk bad about someone for doing drugs but you're a drunk or addicted to your prescription pain medicine then you're a hypocrite, if you're the reason why someone has really bad mental health and when that person talks about it you call the a liar and tell how you're the victim then you're the narcissist, if you blame an 8 year old for a divorce you got then you're probably not mature enough to be married, if a girl's mom dies and you accuse them of not loving their mother because they didn't cry the way you thought she should cry, well then you're probably the devil, if you think raising someone as a single parent but letting them grow up in...